I’ve had a rough month.
When I left Ecuador at the end of September, I knew two things were certain; one, my relationship would end; and two, I would not be working at the same company for long. Call it using the Law of Attraction the wrong way all you want, but these were things I knew in my heart to be true, long before they happened.
Slowly, but surely, both situations manifested and now here I am; dateless, jobless. Historically, I would be shred to tears about now, in dismay with my entire life, but today I can’t help feeling really liberated by it all.
Staring at the figure in the mirror, I hardly recognize the woman standing in front of me in her tight shift dress, blazer, and Steve Madden pumps. I’d hung these heels up months ago.
It’s only now that I’m facing the void of the unknown that I decided to grab them from the closet and slide them out of the box. I’ve worn this black suede pair in so well they don’t even hurt my feet.
Looking in this mirror today, I see the woman that went out, nailed interview after interview, and was heavily sought after in the employment game. I see the confident woman that broke hearts and took names.
I’m not saying I’m ready to jump stiletto-first back into the corporate world or the playing field, (Lord knows I loathe both!), but now that the drawing board is blank, the opportunities are endless.
I manifested these changes into my life for a reason. I may not be able to see that reason yet, but there’s a reason, or some life lesson scattered among the heartache these little blemishes on my resumes have brought me.
Rough month or not, I’m filled with optimism headin’ into November. I’m not sure what the future holds, but I guess half the fun will be in finding out.